So what, you're probably saying about now, but I promise you there is relevance to this tale. You see, SB felt one of the biggest issues we faced as a nation was my generation's lack of stick-to-it-ness. I think maybe that's why she treated me with a modicum of respect that I didn't see her bestow upon many of my peers. Without even realizing that my stubbornness could be an asset, I refused to quit that job, no matter how hard I had to work, or how many times I failed when doing a basic AV setup. This wasn't merely tenacity on my part - it was sheer fear. In all my naivete about the world, I still understood that sometimes the devil you know is better than the one you don't.
My point? Even though I was acting out of fear, I still refused to give up and kept plugging right along, no matter how terrible I saw SB act when she decided that others (lesser, stupid-acting, mere mortals) were no longer worthy of any sort of consideration. Recently I was reminded by a dear friend that even when I feel like I'm failing in so many ways, I still have one thing going for me: stick-to-it-ness. I could call it stubbornness or tenacity, and it will probably continue to get me into trouble occasionally, but regardless, it's that drive to keep going and not give up (give in??) that has helped me get where I am today, and that's not such a bad place.
Now, if I could just apply it to my graduate studies and my etsy shop . . . equally. Somehow, it seems like one or the other is getting all the attention while the other is being neglected. But I'm too stubborn to lessen my commitment to either!
|Collection of vintage cobalt vases, soon to be uploaded to my etsy shop, www.beezuscomplex.etsy.com.|